I am as nothing to my family. My father has rejected me. Why am I alone?

My mother was mentally destroyed, and became a plague upon my sister and me. Where was your help?

I was rejected by my peers. I walked through childhood alone. Where were you?

I was often hungry. I was abused by those given charge of me. Where was your protection?

When I joined with my husband, many wonderful things were spoken over us. So many prophecies are unfulfilled.

What has happened to your promises?

I struggle continually before you. Where are you?

Yet. I remember the times you have saved me…

The drunk driver who drove between me and attackers. Foster parents who were often horrible, but protected me from worse. A father who did not want me, in whose house would have been much worse. Giving me strength to leave an abusive partner. A pastor who stood between me and a gun. Rejection by my peers saved me from the pressure they would have brought. My children have chosen your love despite my sometimes bad parenting.

Even when I didn’t feel you were there, you clearly were. There were those who prayed for my sister and me. Prayers have not been wasted. 2 sisters who were lost to us have been restored. What the enemy has tried to destroy has been met with God’s fire. All 4 sisters serve you in complete devotion. How can this be? What had seemed rejected has been welcomed through God’s hand.

…and I remember the promises fulfilled.

The father who rejected you his entire life and lived only for himself, came to you in the end. I was able to tell him I loved him, something I had never even felt before. I had peace when he passed, and again when my mother passed away 2 months later. Your love brought me peace.

The greatest gift of all-you have made my home one of welcome and love. I am overwhelmed by the love of my family, and even more so by the friends I have welcomed and who call me family. They are more precious to me than they could ever know. I will pray for them all the days of my life.

The woman who was rejected and alone is in the house full of love and family. You have restored what was stolen. You have healed what was broken.

Lord, I will remember your promises. Day after day after day, they are new. You have given me more than I even thought to ask for. Your love overwhelms me. I see you everywhere–how can I deny your love for me?

Once in my life I was rejected and alone, even by my own family; but God has surrounded me with family and a love, beyond what I ever thought I could have.